Picture Update

Holy shit can I really tell a difference. By the way...excuse the wrinkly shirt, I haven't worn it and it's been thrown at the bottom of my closet. I only got it out to take pictures for comparison.

I may not be anywhere near what I want to be but I am looking better and that is motivation enough to keep me going!

Zoo day

  I have been in such a crappy mood for the past week or so. So I've stayed away from updating this blog at all..Figured no one wants to read all my boohoo shit.

   I am disappointed in myself, I haven't lost as much weight as I would have liked to but I guess I should be happy I lost anything. The past two weeks I have lost 3.2lbs I am now at 279 lbs.

  Today was pretty good though. I took the boys to the zoo (it's about 1.5 hrs from us) Oh my goodness was it nice to walk around without sweating insanely and struggling to breathe. I know part of that is because I stopped smoking...but the other part is definitely the 42.4lbs I've lost! Anyway the kids loved it (which I knew they would..since they always do) We left the house at 8am got there at 9:30. I packed lunches to have with us and a snack. We stayed until 1:30ish. I had to make sure we got back since I had an appointment at 4. Went to the appointment and after that we went swimming =) First time this year. My boys were so excited. All of us LOVE going swimming and could probably spend all day every day at the pool. They are worn out and I am as well.

  Hopefully things will start getting back to being good. I'd like to start losing more weight again and I'd like to have positive things to blog about.

mmm

I am...stuffed.

Today I started off with Coffee, 3 Splenda, 2 Tbsp SF creamer and a Chocolate protein Shake

Didn't get the shake in the picture

175 calories total

I had taco salad for lunch and it was beyond good

3oz grilled Chicken. 1.5 pieces lettuce, 1/4 C beans, 2 Tbsp RF Cheese, 1 Tbsp sauce, plus the seasoning on the chicken. This was a total of 216.5 calories. I could probably eat this almost everyday and be happy.

I had an apple and cobly jack cheese

Totaled- 155 calories 

Dinner tonight was just a Yogurt peanut bar and some unsweetened Vanilla Almond Milk

Totaled- 320 calories

Didn't get a picture of this either...dinner time for the family was hectic.

I made cookies tonight..which I try to refrain from doing but I have TONS of peanut butter I wanted to use up.

They're actually pretty small..

I had two of the ones in the front rows.

I'm thinking it was a HUGE mistake. I now feel a bit sick and I'm wondering if it's from the sugar overload (Since most things desert wise have been sugar free)

They tasted great though and my family liked them..now to send them off with my parents (so they can take them to their work) I will not have these in the house!

So I may have dropped out of the challenge, not on purpose though. Life just got in the way of getting online

daily to post. BUT..I'll be posting pictures again occasionally. 

Breakfast

Coffee, 3 Splenda, 1 Tbsp SF Sweet Italian Creamer- 15 calories

Yogurt Peanut Crunch bar- 290 calories

Diet Mixed Berry green tea- 0

lunch

My usual bar and shake plus water- 360 calories

snack

1/2 an apple (gave the other half to the kiddos) 2 Tbsp Cashews- 132.5 calories

Dinner

2 eggs, 1.5 C salad, 2 Tbsp FF Italian, 2 dill pickle spears, 1/4 c shrimp and Tea with 4 splenda

This looked REALLY good...but when I started to eat it, it tasted really NASTY. Almost like nothing but water. So the only thing I ate from this was the eggs and pickles. I threw the rest of it away. =( I was really looking forward to eating it too.

So I had 140 calories 

Snack..

1 SF Chocolate pudding and 1 piece SF caramel candy- 92 calories

Slacking

  My goodness have I slacked off with updating here. I'm almost upset with myself for it. I had taken pictures to post for the challenge but I found myself not getting on the computer so much lately. I've actually been out doing things with the boys and by the time I come home I just want to go to bed!

   I have some good news though. Well good news to me.

I am down another size in jeans!

Went to my weigh in today and I am down 6lbs.

So in 7 weeks, I am down a total of  39.2 lbs.

Current weight- 282.2

Please excuse the weird look on my face/me looking at my phone..

The extremely baggy jeans (they are the only jean PANTS I own and are now 3 sizes too big)

That shirt while it is a bit tight still...is a XL..I don't think I could have even put that around my fatass gut before.

Day #11

I've been gone for most of the day. 

Took the boys to Lowe's to build a mothers day picture frame.

After that we went out shopping.

I got two new shirts that are a 2X instead of a 3X (or not being able to fit into even a 3X)

I am still definitely fat but getting smaller..

Breakfast 8:00am

Yup...used a repeat picture since I didn't take one today

1 C coffee, 1/2 tsp truvia, 2 Tbsp SF Sweet Italian creamer- 15 calories

Chocolate Shake- 160 calories

Water

12:00lunch

Used another repeat picture since I ate lunch on the go and my phone was dead =(

Chocolate Shake- 160 calories

Revolution bar- 180 calories

Didn't have the tea I had Unsweetened vanilla almond milk instead- 40 calories

2:30 snack

I had 1/4 C Cashews but didn't get a picture of them- 170 calories

6:30 dinner

Turkey Burger- 200 calories (didn't have my usual ones from Trader Joe's =( )

1 C mushrooms (measured before cooked) cooked in 2 tsp Worcestershire sauce- 30 calories

1.5 C salad with 2 Tbsp FF Italian- 30 calories

1/2 slice Provolone Cheese- 25 calories

I just finished drinking a cup of coffee with 1/2 tbsp Truvia and 1 tbsp SF Hazelnut/1 tbsp SF Vanilla creamer

Day #10

Breakfast was at 7:00am

I had a Chocolate Shake- 160 calories

1 C coffee, 1/2 tbsp Truvia, and 1 Tbsp SFV creamer- 15 calories

Lunch 12:00pm

Chocolate Peanut Butter bar- 290 calories

1/2 Chocolate Shake- 80 calories

Around 1:00pm I had a lite string cheese and diet green tea.- 50 calories.

I felt starving after lunch which is why I ate the cheese. I feel a lot better now though.

Snack at 3:40

 Apple- 95 calories
2 Tbsp Cashews- 85 calories


Dinne 6:30

3.5 oz Cajun seasoned Alaskan Pollock- 90 calories

1.5 C salad with 2 tbsp Lite Ranch- 85 calories

1 C Unsweetened vanilla Almond milk- 40 calories

WATER!

7:30 snack

SF Chocolate pudding- 70 calories

1/2 serving SF Chocolate- 50 calories

Daily calorie intake 1,110

I had to include this picture of the new pup and Sadie. I think Sadie is starting to get more used to her being around. Before she wouldn't get near the pup. She'd run off and hide.

Day #9

I think today might be another day of going to the park/nature preserve and geocaching.

We didn't go yesterday and the boys were INSANE.

So I think it's best that we go out and do stuff.

Breakfast 7:30am

1 C coffee, 1/2 Tbsp Truvia, 2 Tbsp Sweet Italian Creme- 30 calories

Chocolate shake- 160 calories

1 C Unsweetened Vanilla Almond Milk- 40 calories

I'm drinking a huge thing of water with green thunder mio.
Okay I have definitely been drinking more water today. My bladder is feeling the effects of it (uggh)

12:40pm lunch

Turkey Buger (frozen from Trader Joe's)
1 C (measured before cooked) mushrooms cooked in 2 tsp Worcestershire Sauce
1.5 C salad with 2 Tbsp FF Italian
More water
240 calories for this meal

3:30 snack

1 apple- 95 calories

2 Tbsp cashews- 85 calories

Dinner 6:30

I took this picture after I ate (since I didn't have my phone handy when I started eating)
Chocolate Shake- 160 calories
Honey Caramel bar- 200 calories

That makes 1,035 calories for the day.

Day #8

Toady is weigh in day for me. It's not until later tonight though.

I'm still ready for it! I don't own a scale at home and I don't want one in my house..so I'm curious to see how much I lost (which I know I did since I can now wear a smaller size pants)

Had my weigh in..I'm a bit disappointed. I lost 3 lbs this week. It's better than nothing though I guess..
I'm not sure if it's because I've added some exercise (besides just walking) in and I'm possibly gaining some muscle. Maybe it's the lack of water I've been drinking? I'm not really sure.
3/27/13- 321.4 lbs (start weight)
5/08/13- 288.2 (current)

8:00am breakfast

Yogurt peanut crunch bar- 290 calories

1 cup coffee, 1 tbsp Truvia (waaay too much. I ran out of the individual packets) and 2 tbsp SF Sweet Italian Creme- 30 calories

Lunch 12:00pm

I used the same picture from yesterday since this is what I had today as well.

Chocolate Shake- 160 calories

1/2 Chocolate Mint bar- 95 calories

1/2 Honey Caramel bar- 100 calories

3:00snack

I had an apple- 95 calories

2 Tbsp cashews- 85 calories

I have been drinking iced green tea throughout the day just haven't taken pictures of it (and no I haven't put sugar in it)

6:30 dinner

1 piece of lettuce, 1/8 c RF cheese, 1/4 of a tomato, 4 oz ground turkey, 1 tbsp sauce, and 1 c Almond milk

This came out to 239 calories

Right now I'm having a SF Chocolate pudding

 70 calories

So my daily calorie intake was 1,165.5 (geeze I am apparently having problems adding things up again)

Out for the day

I'm about to get the cooler packed up and get the kids ready and we'll be heading to the park/nature preserve!

I love the trails there. There are quite a few of them and each one is a mile (some are a bit longer).

I think we're going to attempt to do some geocaching too. I think I'm more prepared this time.

So hopefully we'll be able to find some!

The boys are excited but I think I'm even more excited.

I'll be back later today to update with pictures of my meals and probably pictures of our adventures.

Update on today!
It was a GREAT day. The boys were very good. Them being good was VERY rare until recently (and I know it's my fault. When you're a complete fatass that doesn't want to get up/can hardly move without having difficulty breathing it makes it really hard to be a good mother.) Which is why I am making sure I change my whole way of life but that's another story for another day.
We walked a few trails found 3 caches today. We searched for one that we couldn't find (apparently it's been reported as missing) I don't mind going into the woods but I don't care for going into the woods and getting cut up by thorns! Luckily the kids didn't get their legs cut up like I did.
They had soooo much fun. The oldest pretended to be Shaggy (from scooby doo). He was out trying to solve mysteries of the hidden treasure. The oldest pretended to be Jake (from Jake and the neverland pirates). He was trying to find the treasure! They both grabbed a few things from the caches and we put a few things back in them. The oldest was beyond excited to get a lego guy out of one. =) The youngest for whatever reason wanted a bracelet.
They asked me if we could make bracelets when we got home so we can switch out things in the caches another day. So that's what we did..Made bracelets, keychains, and necklaces until it was time for bed. I guess we'll be making them tomorrow too since they cried when I told them to put the stuff up that it was bedtime.

 yup...I'm still a total FATASS

My awesome legs..there's more cuts on the back of them and oh do they burn.